I realized I might be able to make friends easily but I don't keep friends easily. I began to realized that I don't like to leave my comfort zone especially when it concerns friends. I am all game to leave my country for overseas studies or work if opportunities arrive but I dislike having to spend effort and time to know a new group of friends.
Though I have worked at multiple companies, I have never kept in contact with any of the collegues even though we might be quite close while working together. It might have got something to do with my severe need for differentiation between senior and junior, boss and employee etc. And I would always refuse to meet up with friend's friends. I just simply don't like it.
I am always rather close to my classmates but then it will be a different story after graduation. We're close maybe due to the nature of project work and also coz we meet everyday in school but we never spoke on the phone or at least I never make the initiate to call them up for a random chat. I don't know why... coz I remember always hogging the phone when I was in primary and secondary school and my mum always have to scold me. Nowadays I seldom use the phone to chat unless Miss Bong call to disturb..lolx. I don't sms people randomly as well. It seems like everything I do is for a purpose. Where is the carefreeness and impulsive nature that people my age should have? Is this known as growing up? I have never been described as implulsive before. I have to recollection of doing anything wild or creating a havoc before. I am Miss Prim-and-Proper.
Bonkers @ 5/31/2007 02:58:00 PM
