Sometimes I get so frustrated and tired. Sometimes I wonder why did I subject myself to this kind of misery when I've already experienced it last year. Why did I get myself involved again? It is a very thank-less job, why did I do it? Why is my job chasing people to do this and that? This is not what I wanted. And I have key personnel spread all over the globe. All thanks to the 'going global' talk. How am I suppose to contact them?
We are all at the same level, all in it willingly, so I don't understand why some people just can't do their part properly and we can all get it over and done with. Why drag on and affect everyone's progress. Sometimes I really feel like screaming at them to wake up their idea, but can I? No. I've been swallowing all my anger and frustration to the extent that I am talking to myself. I've scenes of myself screaming at them going through my mind whenever I'm pissed off and for the past few nights I even had nightmares. I even see them in my sleep. This is really the limit. I really want to help everyone be successful in their own area but how to when they themselves are is idling away.
I'm not going to do this again, over my dead body. Please remind me of all this agony should you see me attempting it again.
Bonkers @ 1/06/2007 10:02:00 PM
