To my dear friend.
We dated back quite a few years... this year being the 6th if I'm not wrong. I've seen you gone through a series of major changes in the past 4 years. I'm sorry that I'm always not beside you when you're at your lowest point but please know that I do care. I'm just afraid. I've been wanting to say all these but then I never got around to doing it for I don't know how or where to begin. But since you've decided to pour out what's in you heart,
I think I should also let you know what I feel.
I've never been good with words, at least in terms of speaking. I'm also very bad at showing concern. And given my character, if I were to talk to you in a gentle way I would not be expressing all that I want to say but if I were to express it in my way, I'm sure you'll not be able to hear anything in your given state. I'm afraid I'll not know how to react, how to console you. And because of this fear I've stayed away. Though there are times when I get tired from waiting for you to be up again but believe me, I've never given up on you. There is only this much that anyone can help you, be it your family, friends or professional help. The critical part is yourself. Only you can fully understand what you're thinking and what you've gone through. And only you yourself can decided if you really want to let go of your past.
At your age, you should be enjoying your youth, enjoying all the little things in life without much worries and not be suffering like now. You've been through alot I know but I'm sure you can face up to even more challenges ahead. To expect you to return to the one that I've first known is not possible for scars can fade but it will always be there. I only ask that you are happier each day. You've a bright future ahead, a lovely family and friends who really hope to see you up again.
Promise me that you'll only take this month to linger on the past and start year 2007 afresh . Try very hard to be on your feet soon and never fall again....k?
Bonkers @ 12/09/2006 07:49:00 PM
