First day of uni life. In the morn I was feeling pretty excited but as the day goes I can only feel exhaustion. Exhausted from waking up at 7.30am. Exhausted from walking from hall to north spine. Exhausted from shuffling between north n south spine for class. Exhausted from rushing to tuiton and back to hall. And now I only have 1 word to summarized my feeling - Lonely.
I've never felt so sad, so lonely before. I dun noe y suddenly I feel like this. When I stepped into hall and realized that I am gg to face the 4 walls tonite alone (x.wei went home), suddenly a sense of loss hit me. Things that I have always taken for granted is not there anymore. Things like my mum's cooking, my mum's nagging, my sis non-stop blabbering... though I would always ask my sis to shut up and run away frm mum's nagging... I simply miss them now. Or should I say I just miss a human voice. Juz now as I ate my cup noodles, tears juz rolled down. I was also surprised at myself. I seldom cry... esp for no good reason like now. But I juz feel like crying... Tears are rolling down as I type. I am just feeling so lost and sad now. I have never miss home...not even when I went for camps... but now..juz 1 day at hall and I am like this. I miss my smelly bed at home, I miss my toilet! Hiaz.... Hope to get over this fast.
The tons of things to settle certainly do not help... Mummy, where are u!
Bonkers @ 7/25/2005 10:23:00 PM
