Juz came back from kss... there was a campfire todae. I was in sch from 11 am.... so tired now! Hmm...at last the NCO course is officially over... at last I can take a load off my chest... *phew* Was crossing my fingers throughout the whole camp last week and todae's campfire coz dun wan anithing "major" to happen!! Luckily everything went quite smoothly. For todae, had lotsa fun singing (ya...u saw the right word..mabel singing!! ahhaa...) cheers & songs and shouting. I can sing lor... but BUT muz haf someone accompany me to gif me the tune and i muz learn for a long time lah... hehe....
Todae Kranji was having a course for the sec 3 & 4..... called the Adam Khoo's course. I'm sure u haf heard of this guy right. Well, heard frm my cadets that this course is veri good. They uses psychology to help you find yourself... your real self and your emotions. How many of we actually know our real self? In this society we are often forced to have many different face... many of us behave 1 way in front friends and another way in front of family...but which one is the real us? To tell the truth, I realli dun noe. How I wish I had tis kind of course when I was in sec sch....
I admit that I dun realli noe myself. How many of you can say tat u fully understood me? There were times when I fear that my decision is not the right one. I fear that it will affect my life, my future. Basically I'm just afraid to fail / embarrase myself. I always admire those who know what they wan in their life. What they are after in life...but me? I dun noe. I absolutely haf no dream....or should i say I might haf but I didn't acknowledge it as I tink I might not be able to do it. Ppl might see me as someone who is confident but inside I dun noe if I'm realli confident. I myself is not sure.
Hiaz.... all this kind of qns seem to haf no answer but I'll always think of it frm time to time. Realli hope to be able to fing myself one of these days....hopefully it will be soon. =]
Bonkers @ 3/20/2004 11:30:00 PM
