Had been like 2 weeks since I last made an appearance here? Yep...i tink so. Reson? Hmm...coz I dun realli have much to write here...realli mundane life...everyday wake up, go work, go home, sleep. Then the cycle repeats itself until Fri. Sat & Sun is my OFF dae! Yea~ But oso nothing much to look forward to lah....juz laze ard at home coz I'm not the type tat realli like to go out. Y? 1)Going out too much will make my mother nag n nag n NAG! I realli hate to hear her voice man! so fan!
2) Go out need $$ one lor....where got so much $$ to everytime go out. 3) Go out ...go where?? do wat?? I dun play pool, I can't cycle well, I can't swim well.... I dun realli like to shop here shop there.... so stay at home n rot...rather to put it nicely...it is to rest!
Hiaz....ever since I start working...I have seen a few kinds of ppl in the work place...those ppl...sometimes I wonder if they are children in disguise. They way they fight for credit...the way they push the responsibility ard is so....like children! n mind you...all of them are like aunties...in thei 30s, 40s, 50s...... n me? onli 18.... n my boss?? early 20s....sometimes I realli pity my boss.....so young but haf to control these big children...tey way she talk to dem make me wanna laugh initilly...realli like talking to children...but when I hear their response...I finally understand y the boss talk to them tat way....u noe the way u try to reason out things will children? Explaining every single detail n repeating it several times....
Do you find my entry rather general? Seldome find my more personal thoughts here rite? Ya...I realize it too. But I simply can't bring myself to write them here...at least not now, hopefully in future. I noe that there are ppl reading it...so I guess I still dun realli wan ppl to noe what is going through my mind. Yes...I'm like keeping a distance between myself n my friends...even my good friends from sec sch...ya..good friend...not best friends...y? Coz I believe tat there is no such thing as best friends...how do you noe tat person(S) is /are the best you can ever get? So to me...I onli haf good friend n friend. wat's the diff? Hmm...good friends are those that I will help if they need n maybe sometimes share wif them wat I'm thinking (but never my inner inner most thoughts yet) n friends are like...ok...I dun realli like you nor do I hate you...but oso not those hi-bye friend...u get it? Well, it's juz a feeling...I myself will be able to differentiate between them. =) Sometimes I realli wish to tell my good friends what I feel....but I'm the kind that will haf certain thoughts under certain situations...after tat I will forget abt it...not realli forget lah...but juz not harping on it animore until another situation jolt back the thoughts.
I do feel that as you grow older...the friends you haf ...u will realli wonder whether you can trust them. U will worry abt being backstabbed by them...ur so call friends for their own interest. Wat makes me say so? Coz a few of my friends that I haf seems to portray a different side of themselves after times past by. So it makes me wonder which side is the real side of them. That makes me appreciate my friends from sec sch more...I find that we haf a more...innocent friendship..I hope that will be the case for as long as it will last. But I find us drifting apart? ya...maybe coz we haf taken different paths...we get influenced by different ppl that we meet...but still I consider you guys my good friends... Take care k.... Hope we will still be in contact 10 yrs down the road.... For now...hope we'll meet up soon...maybe b4 sch re-open k...by den I would haf finish working...
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Bonkers @ 12/14/2003 04:31:00 PM
