gotten my resutls last fri...was rather satisfied with it but if tat b+ can be and A...will be even better =)
Part of me was happy that my results have not dropped and in fact it improved but part of me is worried....
Worried tat I will not be able to keep up with my own results in year 2.... i can feel tat the stress will be uilding up when school starts...haiz...
it's so difficult to live life....like this cannot like tat oso cannot...i really dun noe wat will happen if my results dropped...maintaining is so difficult...realli so tiring...
sometimes i juz wish i can dun study for those tests n exams... =/
Then now there is npcc... already quite tired of it. Although if I were to compare to those who are active in both their unit n HQ, what i do is not even half of their load...but still sometimes i wish i dun need to go np...
maybe it is b'coz i'm not active in other areas...so unit life day in day out is the same...
or maybe it's b'coz i'm not really suitable to be a CI...afterall what haf i accomplished so far after 2 years of graduation? those from the later batch than mine are doing much more...
or maybe it's b'coz i've been "shoot" by my seniors so often recently n i've seen so many much more capable CIs frm my area tat makes me feel that maybe i shouldn't be a CI? i dun noe....
maybe maybe maybe....there are juz so many maybeS...
Maybe it's juz tat i had enuff?
I do not noe.....but 1 thing for sure...I haf decided to leave npcc when i start year 3....it's time for me to concentrate on my studies n move on to try other things in life...
If after 1-2 years away from npcc n I still haf the urge to be in npcc...then i will consider going on to be a HO.....
But realli....1 year later i will move on....
2:32 pm
Bonkers @ 6/09/2003 02:41:00 PM
