hmm...i'm not someone who will show my feelings...neither will i tell you about my innermost thots even if you are my close friend...
y?? i dun noe...maybe it's b'coz of my character...i noe that i build a boundary between myself n other...even between close friends...
but i am trying very hard to let go...
Maybe it's because i'm older now...it's more difficult to relate to others as u know that there are all kinds of ppl in this world.... another thing abt me is tat i am too
cautious in watever i do...i dun feel like trying things that are not familiar to me... During a class when we are told to identify our happiest and saddest moments....n i realized that I dun haf any! So far in my life I dun haf nay moments that make me very happy......happy moments there are..but not the happiest....
neither are there my saddest moments....guess that b'coz of my personality...
i avoid conflicts n i dun 'dare' to be crazy...let my hair down n have so fun....sometimes i feel so tired..so stressed up...especially when my assignmentS n npcc things clashed together....
I was very enthu abt being in npcc n being a CI and i still is enthu...but maybe the level of it has decreased.....maybe it's b'coz i am not able to devote alot of time to it...
or maybe it's juz b'coz after 5 yrs...I'm starting to get tired....really tired (mentally) at times...
haiz...my precious thots will stop here for now....
if u happen to be reading this n u noe me....lucky u...
u r the few lucky ones to noe how i feel...
12:30pm
Bonkers @ 4/02/2003 12:28:00 AM
